“Mommy, don’t scold me…”
“I’m sorry, Mommy… I’m sorry…”
These are words spoken by my boys to me. Words that brought a pang of guilt and pain to my heart.
They are words that made me stop and think. Words that made me question, “What have I done to these little ones in the midst of my rushing through a hectic pace of life?”
Sometimes I feel that my days are lived in a hurry. Especially so during school days. Our 3 kids start and end school at different timings. As a result, they have breakfast at 3 different timings, and lunch at another 3 different timings.
The first week of school has just passed and I’m already feeling worn out… we have 39 more weeks to go. I can’t wait for the 2 boys to be in the same school session next year!
Most days I feel that I am constantly in a hurry. Hurrying so that we don’t miss the school bus. Hurrying so that they won’t be late for school. Hurrying so that they have time for a proper lunch before heading to school. Hurrying so that dinner can be served on time. Hurrying so that they can go to bed early and not be too tired the next day.
And in the midst of all these hurrying and rushing, I had unknowingly expected my kids to hurry too. I snap at them to do things faster, eat faster, shower faster, don’t talk so much, don’t ask questions, just do it, hurry, hurry, hurry…
When they dawdled a little, they were reprimanded. When they stopped to enjoy the moment, they were being rudely rushed. When all they wanted to do was to simply have time to discover and play, they were given a “No, there is no time to play now!” as an answer.
After a long lecture by me today for not getting ready fast enough for his school bus, Jay started apologising.
That made me sad.
And I realised.
I need to SLOW DOWN.
We all need to slow down.
I’m not sure how, but there must be a way for a slower pace of life (besides migrating, that is)!
I am reminded of this popular poem “Slow Down, Mummy”, which I have read months ago. I read it again today and it made me tear.
Slow Down, Mummy
by Rebekah Knight
Slow down mummy, there is no need to rush,
slow down mummy, what is all the fuss?
Slow down mummy, make yourself a cup of tea.
Slow down mummy, come and spend some time with me.
Slow down mummy, let’s put our boots on and go out for a walk,
let’s kick at piles of leaves, and smile and laugh and talk.
Slow down mummy, you look ever so tired,
come sit and snuggle under the duvet and rest with me a while.
Slow down mummy, those dirty dishes can wait,
slow down mummy, lets have some fun, lets bake a cake!
Slow down mummy I know you work a lot,
but sometimes mummy, its nice when you just stop.
Sit with us a minute,
& listen to our day,
spend a cherished moment,
because our childhood is not here to stay!